" we were never meant to be baby we just happened " -kw

and NOW all the haters just clapping . 

Glad to see the end , at us they're just laughingg

ihatehoes.blogspot.com

For you .

heyy thank you for writing a blog as if you were me . you  did a great job because its exactly what i would have said . let me return the favor :

Im C-lo bitch . and i dont care about no HOE . i trust only me y mi familia . iJERKKKKKKK . Turn me upp brooo ! Aye vee ! whats up for tonight ? ayee i need a home girl who will understand me , like a bestfriend one who can lay in the bed w. me and send me kisses over myspace ♥ . damn im happy i got that MONKEY off mah back . now sonia can cook me dinner w. no worries . i can go to whoevers dorm and do whatever . did i mention TURNNNN MEE THE FUCK UP . no more stresss . 

peace .

with you .

i never need to see the sun again , 

there is enough shinee in your eyes

to light up myy world . ♥ 

ohp ! am [ I ] like a star ?
=]

i hatee hoes

and after all was said and done . . .

i got up , cleaned , and made those tacos . lol

i ♥ mr. Christopher Sanchez .

Spring Break .

SLAMMM DUNKK . i miss you , i miss you , i reallyy wannaa kiss youu , haha .elevating to new altitudes. are those girls gonna get all the way naked !missions-never-impossible ;) . rocking out .in a comfortable and familiar cuddle/slumber while monsters vs. aliens is on the big screen . partying && eatting w. the alpha's .shopping galor .the love of my life is definantly marc hughes .- i cant feel my faceee >:0 - im never stepping foot in a county building again .the little bros && Nari can jerkkk .Jess where's your car ? Good morningg muffin . candle lit . . everything . smh . hurtttt . alrea-

but dammit i missed float-topia !

Damn .

i leave the Internet world and this is what happens .

rebuttal or let it go ?

im a sweet girl , ive always been . i do make mistakes thou , but i dont ever hurt anyone deliberately . and thats how im gonna stay .

i can also yap off out the mouth . and feed
Lies . disrespect . hatred , towards who ever i feel like .
and after that i can say , ill beat your ass .
i cant fight . but i can still SAY it . .
but . i love you .
i love everyone of you who LOVED me , but have Gemini tendencies .

if ive ever said " i love you "
w. all my heart , i still love you .

please stop lying on me , please stop lying on your self .
please dont disrespect me ,
thats all i ask

thank you .

oh my .

Hey Sharee ,
arent you the same one who told somebody
" im not about to blog battle you mah nigga "
some months ago .

. .
i just had to call you out for that
smh .

Who am i ?

I am

a beautiful young lady who is caring and loving , a woman who loves hard . Really hard . I am a lady who many have claimed to love . I am a lady , who would never dare say love is temporary . ( because thats bullshit ) A lady who is down for whoever she`s with no matter how outrageous they may be . a lady who has always had an optimistic outlook on life . A lady who rarely takes no for an answer . . a lady who , when she commits , she does it completely . A lady who is willing to do any && everything for her family , the present one , and the one who she will have in the future . I am a nurturer , and when it comes down to it , i am a provider . I have been a wife longer than you think . I am naturally a cooker , cleaner , and #1 fan . ( honestly dont know where the above came from ) . i am so organized that it makes some people mad . . . I am also a jealous && stingy lady . not just for my companion . i feel the need to be 1st in the hearts of my parents , grandparents , siblings , and besty . I fight for what i feel is rightfully mine . I hate losing people , to death , to the game , to nonsense . I am someone who cherishes every friendship ive ever had , even if it ended in vein . I am someone who appreciates EVERYONE who has treated me , however they treated me , because those are the things that shaped a piece of me that i carry always . I am a person who has never done something to deliberately hurt feelings , i hate for my feelings to be hurt , i hate for other people feelings to be hurt .

and yes i am a lady who`s made mistakes .
BUT .

I AM proud of myself for not turning into a mad black woman after all ive been through . I AM proud of myself for being able to look at all my emotional scars and smile . I AM proud of myself for learning how to adapt to so many environments , situations and an array of attitudes that ive dealt with .

I AM going to be the best wife to someone DESERVING . I AM going to be the best mother in the world to my EIGHT children .

Thats who I AM . Thats who ive BEEN .
and thats who I`ll ALWAYS BE .
and im never ashamed of it .

I am a beautiful young lady inside and out . ♥

oh nooo you dont .

lol . i can NOT believe you mister .
December 2007 . i wanted to be your girlfriend .
but i couldnt , you wouldnt let me . .
yes i didd love you .
was there a [we] thou .
Nope Just Chris and Ree .
. . . now .
October . November 2008
together , yes we were
"Foreverrr" yea that was the plan .
conversations of marriage , family , and everything else imaginable .
as we lay . . EVERY night side by side .
an argument arises .
and ooppss !

also the difference is .
you asked me about my sexual activity and sweetheart .
I WAS A WOMAN ABOUT IT .
i let you know straight up .
and i always have .
ask me something now , and ill do the same .
i had nothing to hide from a boy that i claimed i loved .

i asked you .
and well . i probably got a look of disgust
a look that screams
" i would never do that to you wife "
but yet , me being me .
i did some investigations.
and well . found the truth .
i had to FIND the truth .


dont everrrrrr again blame it on new years eve of 2007 .
something that came before you made a commitment to me .
when i have something resting on my aching heart thats much heavier .

tell the truth .
you just wanna be you again .
life filled w. books and an arrangement of boos , babys ect .
that wont question you , nor get in your business
wont clean your mess
wont cook your dinner
just have facebook and aim convos about
taking care of that body

thats fine by me .
ive given all i had to offer .

enjoy your life , however it is that you want to enjoy it .

peace lil mama

in response .

i wouldnt dare put this directly on your wall , ive had enough of humiliating myself .
i would never call you my enemy , thats just not possible .
But ,
i really do feel insulted when you call me things like
sis
mamaz
bestfriend
ree ( sometimes )
. . .
as if i was neverr . . . well you know
i tried to pretend . call you Bro but , im " clearly being fake "
( as my besty put it )

like i said ill try and let this thing go , be a big girl about it or whatever .
but pleaseee pleaseee stop insulting me .
like i was always just your friend . we`ve been through farrr to much
done tooo many things .
if nothing else , just call me Sharee
dont expect me to be cool w. your next either ,
i wont disrespect her , but im not going to smile w. her .
& im not going to smile w. you like seeing that you moved on makes me happy .
its outta the question .

maybe you should just start avoiding me now , so it wont seem like im acting odd when that time comes .

P.S . lol at people thinking they are getting over on me speaking spanish on your wall .
i can understand it perfectly . i have you to thank for that :) .

do you see the pattern ?

November 2004

Your something else girl , you not like these hood rats running 'round here , your a princess , you need to be MY queen .

. . .

April 2006

Sharee , you just dont know how you make me feel with just the words you say , your so different , like , i swear ive never met anyone like you .

. . .

November 2007

and i quote

If any boY eva did U wr0ng He had 2 be st00pId in his head CuZ U r soOo BoMB!!!!

. . .

25 minutes ago

aye your something special , and if them niggas didnt see that , their dumb . i recognize it , i embrace it , and i wont let it go un-praised .

ha ! different wording , sameee damn thing .

Damn girl , thats pretty messed up how them others treated you , ill probably do the same , but hey for now , imma be a good boy , show you that you ARE special , and when i get you to that point where you'll do anything for me , ( give me your virginity , get my name tattoo'd , give up the idea of a university for now and re-locate to where ever i go ) then . . well imma act an ass . make you cry , then say good-bye .

lol , noo thank you sir .

im gooood .

Wisdom .

One day not too long ago , a young country boy gave me a bit of advice .

he said
Sharee , never put all of your eggs in one basket .

i laughed at his country-ness .
Thought :
What makes him so qualifed to tell me where to put MY eggs . lol at this guy . . .

. . .

=/ . now i olo .

the up side , im still bomb . =]

in agreement . =]

love . live life . proceed . progress .

make suree our neighbors get no r e s t
huh lucy y brittany ?

P.S i love you too bro bro Chrissy ♥

Now .

to ease my mind ,
i just keep repeating .

Ree , your going to be the bombest mommy & wife one day .

" Cogito ergo sum "
- i think , therefore i am -

so all i need to focus on now is getting better for US^ ( my husband & children) , as a unit . ♥

i wont worry , someone out there is thinking the same exact thing . we'll be complete onee dayy .

the last dedication . to you .

Did you forget that I was even alive ?

Did you forget everything we ever had ?

Did you forget , did you forget

about me ?

Did you regret ever standing by my side ?

Did you forget we were feeling inside ?

Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song , you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand

Did you regret ever holding my hand ?

Never again, please don't forget ,

don't forget

We had it all ,

we were just about to fall Even more in love ,

than we were before

I won't forget ,

I won't forget

about us

But somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song

you can't forget it

. . .

Somewhere we went wrong

We were once so strong

Our love is like a song ,

you can't forget it . . .

at all

And at last

all the pictures have been burned

And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned

I won't forget , please dont forget us

Somewhere we went wrong

Our love is like a song
b u t y o u w o n 't s i n g a l o n g

You've forgotten
about
us^♥

I love you fluffy . bye .

Speakk

So im sad

About the moment

ive lost my love

(Damn)

I couldn't see him leaving

(You were gassed)

And that's such a shame

cause God yanked the rug

and holding my heart

will not help me breathe

It's over , leave it

It's over , leave it

So I`m sad

And I should own it

and you fucked up

(Damn)

I thought that I was the team

(I was gassed)

And now My opponent

who wears my gloves

(Damn)

A nightmare

just ate up my dreams

(Now Im Sad)

I Could have had SO much done

I blew it off

(Damn)

MY chance is p a s s i n g me by

(I was gassed)

Opportunities wait for no one

And it cost for a lost

This here`s a joke

whether I laugh or I cry

Sooner or later it all comes crushing down

baby monkey voice .

Love me please :( .

[ making the sad lio baby scrunched up face ]

I wish

Weaaaak .

And our new mac book cant make it better
thats 25 hundred dollars invested
strictly because we are camera/video junkies
Nor my New Blackberry .

Nor my New Roommate from the Bay ,
Lol she`s wild .
She comes home most nights Drunk as shit .
And i just smile . . .

Why cant i be content w. living life like her ?
Waking up In the Morning , EVERY morning
w. last night as a blur .

Cause if you cant remember , how could you reminisce
What i woudnt do to live life as free as this .

but its just not me . =/
super bummer .

my lio monkey .

I really think i need you
Because my body acts like it breathes you
my mouth , my stomach , it eats you
engchris08 to shareesanchez . i need to receive you .

i know i seem soo insane .
yea a thousand niggas . . .
but never felt THIS pain .

i wish i would have known
or
i wish i would have been afraid
. . .
I wish you would have never shown up
or
i wish you would come back today .


I love you♥ Forever

Damn-it .

I have a Philosophy mid-term today =/ .
i need to get my mind rightt .

bye .

B4L . .
that blog fucked w. me mentally .
presents yu bought , bites on your cheek , reunite`d
does it feel soo good ?
Ravennn your sooo cool .
i remember when it was
Shareeee your sooo tite !

time and time again you said to my face ,
now on Faceook , " i dont know where your lips been "

i just wish you would come over
hold me and tell me everything is fine now
stop crying like a lio baby monkey .

The boys say
the reason hes acting like this is cause your acting like a [ Chris ] Junkie
its unattractive nd
hes gonna keep doing it as long as you keep bothering him .
ill try , i really will . cause this hurts more then any painn .
see sunshine doesnt ALWAYS conquer rain .

Im in love ,

Lucy G. & Brit collabo !

alright so this is how the story goes...

First off Ree & Mee dont give a fucc about no Hoe.WE are D-Lo.
Especially not crackheads.
So what if we come from the poorest neighborhoods in LA, thats what has made us who we are today.
And Im GHETTO , sooo the fuck what?
I still got my shit together and better believe i will be successful.

Today we came up.
LALALALALA
Photobooth :-*
And thats Karma for yo ass!

Let me hand the laptop to Ree, real quick BRB.


Cannn smell what the Ree Cooking ?!
Celebrations poppin all weekend ,
ended it off w. a leavee notice =/
sooo sad this is the end .
where we at next LuLu ?
LAA BITCHESSSSSS ! =]
Taking it back to Ellwood Beach for the time being ,
house warming popping tonightt .
WE ♥ Britt .

Backk to Lucyyy . . .

Ayyyy!!!
Hk bacc to mee.
This is the beggining of a wayyy too popppin spring/summer09 in Santa Barbara.
Let me kno if yall trynna come by the crib.lol
Turn us THE FUCC UP mann!
switchin.....

ahww cuh !
Jeff just walked in w. a big dead shirt on ,
He not trynaa hop on the sticks for a dub thou ,
( what we say when bet each other, playing NCAA basketball 09)

Now we smoccin fat ass bowls.
bout to be lit up lol!
reee hittin it & im next.
thanks jeff. im done for today.
lucyyyyg.♥


cheers to my girls
thanks to the real
now let the fun begin
ree tatted me up! ♥

well thats itt ! ♥

ree . Lucy . Brit .

i mean i know that I M beautiful ,

Facebook ; i even got musical .

nd yea they laugh at alll that

i tell the hater kids fall back .


But instead we fall , we were so promising i swear we had it all .

♥

if i surround myself w. positive things , ill gain prosperity 

i think im suffering from manic depression .

its awful by the way .

lmao , hey i was sitting in ethics class , and this went through my head .
( you have me suicidal , sucidal , suicidal , suicidal . . .) like a broken record .
its overrrrr .
shout out to sean kingston for that .
he knowsss .

would i really kill myself over this ? him .


Question : Are you really actually insane , if you can classify yourself as insane ? or are you more insane due to the fact that you know you are insane and not change the way you think ?

i really hate your wall postings christopher sanchez .
but even if i delete you , im going to sign on [ blank ]'s facebook to see your wall .

and that convo we had 2 seconds ago . my oh my .
it made my life , just that much more complicated .

fuck i should just go out and partyyy .
id throw up from being anxious
worried if chris will find out .
sooo what . who cares .
i do

I DO , isnt that what a wife is supposed to say .

ive totally lost it . just l-o-l at me .
or s-y-h .

where is my pride ?

i do become something great , someone will find this and say " your weak "
i am very weak .

what happened to sharee hughes .
iono.

ree

i was so angry last night . so very angry .
im happy now .
so happy that i went to the cliff house earlier to thank them .
because they make you so happy .

oh and your picture on face book w. lucy is so cute . you have always been bomb .

dont cry ree . you will ruin your make-up .

pretty ree . thirsty ree .
wait im not sure i understand you ree .

dont bug me ree .
dont love me ree .
dont hug me ree .

im finding my self you see ,
and i`ve found out your not for me .
i think its best if you leave S.B ,
you might end up hating me .

bye ree .
bye ree .
goodbye ree .

i love you thou ree .
just try to forget about me .
its whats best .
im too young for this ree . =]

man o mann .

3.4.09
do we have to fight again tonight ?
Please lets not go there again .
we went there .
-im gonna go home -

1.5 hours in the cold . on the bus . w. 3 bags .

well at least im home now , let me plug in my phone thats been dead for 3 days , HE might text me to make-up .

. . .

16 voicemail messages ?
I feel important !
Lets see who`s been blowing me up .

i been w. hubbie , phones been off because hes the only one i feel is important enough to charge it for .
. .
the voice begins
MONDAY MARCH 2ND 4:23pm
1.Grandma`s voice "Sharee ! you need to call me , your moms in the hospital , the police found her on the ground of the park BREATH-LESS , call me a.s.a.p"
2. Same voice , " Sharee call me "
3. Same voice " Sharee whats going on , your momss in the hospital "
4-9 same thingg going on .
10. Grandma`s voice saying my mom flat lined , shes dead . . the hurt in her voice was enough to make my heart stop for a couple of beats .
my mommy is what ? she cant be . 35 , vegetarian , jogs 2 miles a day , healthy-er than ME . she is what ?!
. . .

11. Daddy`s voice " hey kiddo your grandma just called me , call me back mamas "
12. Great Grandma " Honey this is Grandmama , call me when you get this "
13. Grandma`s voice again " they brought her back , shes back , she`s unconscious though , where are you sharee ? call me "
14. Same voice " sharee call me "
15. " Sharee call me "
16. Grandma`s voice " give me a call sharee "

My mom was dead for 4 hours , completely flat-lined . the doctors sent the message that there was nothing more they could do .

My step-father wasnt having that .

so they went back to work .

she came back to life . after 4 hours of being dead . Not what typically happens in the real world .
she had a heart-attack .

now , she`s partially brain dead .
my mommy . . so smart , so bomb , so everything most mothers strive to be .
partially brain dead . cant hold up a paper for too long right now .

and now , her 5 year old and 2 year old , are MY 5 year old and 2 year old .
Step-dad has to go away to make money for these medical bills cause they have no insurance .

everybody else is too old to take care of these little lives . so now its me and them .

cant worry about if the major im in is one that i really wanna pursue , gotta find a job , a bigger apartment , a daycare, a pre-school . . .

as much as i want to , i cant chase you and worry about who you may be talking to on the side , if your being faithful , when your family will find out about me . I have children now . Ha , see what i get , i had been asking and asking and joking about us having some already . . i got them chris . and this is gonna be my biggest stress so far .

your offer was sweet . and i thank you for it . but i know the truth . you dont need this . have fun at ucsb . live it up . its your life . and this . . this is mine .

Just mee .

1. i wish you would delete that myspace of yours , your out-going and incoming comments are thirsty .
2. i wish people didnt say one thing to me and then turn around and say something totally different to each other . Yu put me in an odd position .
3. i wish you wouldnt tell Chris he should hang out with you even if i am not around THEN get in the car w. me about 30 minutes later and say " i was telling Chris that he better be good to you "
4. i wish my Daddy would increase my allowance
5. i wish i could eat at the dinning commons at UCSB for less than $11 dollars a meal
6. i wish i could ask you a question w. out you saying " your F**king weird Sharee "
7. i wish we were married and had enough money for us to have a baby already
8. i wish my mother`s husband wasn`t an asshole
9. i wish i could pause time , travel the world , then pick up where i left off .
10. i wish i would have taken more units this semester
11. i wish i wouldnt have went off on them that day , she was just tryna go home .
12. But i wish , if she felt it was necessary to ask me to add him on facebook that she would feel it was necessary to mention she was getting a ride home .
13. i wish i could get financial aid
14. i wish i would stop eating things that used to walk the earth ( its soo hard thou )
15. i wish there was no inbox or IM on facebook , just wall postings . . .

to be continued=]

Happy ending .

So the other day as me and fluffy were walking hand in hand around UCSB , i saw two things that absolutely made my day =] .

• i saw about 12 of the cutest lio human beings , walking in two lines . none of them could have been more than 2 feet all. Just waddling down the sidewalk like little duckiess . Its the kinda thing that makes you wanna have kids already . well . . not really =/ . lmao . I think they were from the little day care right across from the student resource building .
• Ha , [ her ] , looking like the hottest mess from Washington Prep High School . I mean everything was outta place . Extremely Sub-standard . nd those fat bags under her eyes . eek ! lmao . yea whatever i dont know what she looks like every day , nor do i care ! i seen her that day . nd well she was looking baddd . and my oh my did she turn her pedaling speed to max when she saw my facee . Maybe i shouldnt extract joy out of other people's short-comings . . . . SHAME ON YOU REE . who`s to say she wont grow up to be something greater than you ? well i guess we will see when we get there . . as for now . LMAO .

there are only 2 other people , other than her and her boyfriend who would even understand where this animosity is coming from . Come to think about it , those people are the only ones who actually KNOW for sure who im talking about .

Its my Blogg . I say what i want . =]

remember .

Im your girl , your my man . . .
Promise to love you the best i can .
♥

i just wanna be successful

She has achieved success who has lived well , laughed often and loved much ; who has enjoyed the trust of pure men , the respect of intelligent women and the love of little children ; who has filled her niche and accomplished her task ; who has left the world better than she found it , whether by an improved poppy , a perfect poem , or a rescued soul ; who has never lacked appreciation of earth's beauty or failed to express it ; who has always looked for the best in others and given them the best she had ; whose life was an inspiration; whose memory is a benediction .

SB

Day by Day Santa Barbara is becoming more and more beautiful .
How did i ever bring myself to think about running away ?

I cant wait until mid-March, April . . I know the weather is going to be absolutely perfecttt =]
Picnics && Lazy days roaming the beach w. my lio fluffy monkeyy .

P.S , everything is finee now ♥

Promise

Fresh outta Ethics class , and out of all the meaningful things Dr. Marc Bobro said & questioned , one stood out the most to me on this 24th day of the 2nd month of 2009 :

Is a Promise unconditional ?

My answer : most definitely

=[ / =]

Fuck it , Once again ill sleep alone
Cause nobody in this world
can take his place on our^ throne .
And all the love that was shown. . .
How did it go so wrong ?
How could i not reminisce on us^ 17 , . .
acting like we`re grown
ha . . in front of daddy`s home =X
Late night t-mails to your phone . . =]

Nd late night kisses in my drive way
" im moving to SB "
Daddy looked at me sideways
But the thought of losing you after may . .

. . Turn my future summer skies dark gray . .


Nd i could care less what the people say
i declare today officially [ OUR^ DAY ]

mrsanchez08.blogspot.com

im sitting here reading all of your blogs .
and i must say , you went pretty hard in some of those posts
ex : " w. you you you and her "
Lmao .
but those small things dont amount to the many beautiful blogs you wrote about your wife .
I tried to comment on some , but it wouldnt let me for some reason .
well .
I love you ♥

No !

I can not stand this !
I feel like jumping off a damn cliff !
Why ? we were supposed to be forever . .
forever . forever . forever .
why not ? why couldnt we ?
Christopher Sanchez ! your my everything . everything . everything
MY Husband , so what am i supposed to do when i see you w. another .
Im sure to have enough rage to pull her head right off of her shoulders !
i know she wont deserve you ! i know . i knoww chris .
No matter how smart , pretty or whatever she may be . ill look at her and see [ doo-doo mama that has MY husband ]
i cant handle that chris .
i know im sweet . but how quickly i will turn sour .
i wish i can send you nummies through this computer
so that you can say " i love you lio baby "
and we could smile and roll over into a deep sleep
one that we would never wake up from .
One where we walk and play on clouds forever .
No one else , just us .
Like when we moved here to S.B .
we didnt care about any parties , hanging out , anything .
Just rolled around in the bed .
not giving a fuck .
i need that
i need that back .
givee it back .

this hurts .

Spoken word .

but Still i cry from behind this closed curtain
Cause deep down Sharee is still hurting ,

but for you i`ll smile all day .
look at that picture in my phone
and from there i`ll be okay .

you changed my life in the most extraordinary way . . .

Like how you made me get over my BAD habit ,
and gave me wisdom so i`d never go back at it .

You and i knew we were against the world ,
and you didnt mind as long as you had your . . . girl .

Through that Goood thang , and that Bad .
I made you happy . . . I made you mad . . .
You made Me smile . . . But also made me sad .
but still i say your the best thing ive ever had . .

And , through those seasons how much has changed ,
we think staying together would be strange ? =/
well , . . i guess thats cause the sun shined way less than it rained .

Yea , and even though we`re now apart
You still remain the only real love in my heart . . .

Too bad we cant go back and
Minus the controversy
So that Today we could have had the chance to say ,

Happy Anniversary

I love you . Goodnight .

February 23rd

------------ February 23, 2008 7:24 am ------------
SooNotn2Yoou: Well i know your having a busy morning .
SooNotn2Yoou: Buttt . I heard something yesterday . && even though its kinda babyish . It made me think of you .
SooNotn2Yoou: You Are My Sunshine .
SooNotn2Yoou: My Only Sunshine .
SooNotn2Yoou: You make me happy .
SooNotn2Yoou: When skys are gray .
SooNotn2Yoou: You`ll never know dear .
SooNotn2Yoou: How much I love you .
SooNotn2Yoou: Please dont take me Sunshine away . .
SooNotn2Yoou: In the Month . . that comes . . . After May . . :-(

no frowns , all smiles .

Nothing but love .

For a reason

I ask my self
Can this week get any worse ?
it seems like this week ive been through hell and back , like the kinda ish that would make you say " Fuck my life ." But , dont Judge me , you never walked in my shoes , so you have no clue what my journey was like . All i know is i want to escape , not temporarily either . like im really considering changing my name and moving to another city . Somewhere far , where no one knows a single thing about me and cant trace anything back to this life because my name isnt Sharee Hughes anymore .

i want to say a few things to a few people .

Christopher Sanchez .
Boy i loved you , i still do . and i will no matter where i go . but you honestly hurt me more than everyone else before you [combined] . im not going to go on and on like you are such a bad guy . hey maybe if i were in your shoes i would have done some of the same things . Since October 2007 you`ve always been the one who could make me smile w. little to no effort , which is why i became so weak for you . we agree`d on making our anniversary on February 24th , and we were so close man , so close . But it all came crashing down over silliness . but what is done is done . Just know that i regret nothing , even if in October of 2007 , i knew that this would end so horribly , i wouldnt change a thing . the experiences that you and i shared is probably equivalent to a couple that has been married for 10 years . I love yu forever darling , i hope you feel the same .

Iman Europe
Man , really i dont even know what happened . i just know that im no longer "twin" im Sharee . Where it came from and why , I dont know . all i know is i love you TWIN . i will always remember you shawty=] . how could i not , we were so much alike that it was weird . I believe everyone must meet at least one individual that makes them feel like that in their lifetime , w. out it you truely haven`t Lived . I will admit that maybe i was a little extra for how i felt about you and Chris still being friends , but all i know is that im proud of myself for being honest . Both of you knew exactly how i felt about it . honesty is the reason why we grew so close in the 1st place . nd ima cherrish what we had forever .

Ally J
Oh my . 1st Im sorry . I know we talked about this on the phone already but i wanna put it in writing . . well typing . I was in a verrry emotional state of mind , but even so , i had NO REASON of EVER accusing you of some east-y shit like that . ( i know your laughing at my choice of words ) I love you girl . for real . we had some gooood times lmao , and we will CONTINUE to have them .
Turn . Me . Up . Niekaaa !

Charles Glaster
I love you Besty . Forever and Always . Right now your my ONLY best friend , The only one who always looks out for me , takes my side no matter what , and finds any way possible to contact me when im M.I.A . You have BEEN here by my side , and i know thats how its gonna stay , like i can say w. full confidence that my besty will never turn his back on me , no matter how stupid i act or how much i may piss him off . He`s my Besty for life . Even if my name nd location changes . =]


I think thats about it .

paix et amour .

OMG

why the heck does my little 10 year old brother read my blogs . he left a comment on " let`s go !" saying that he was gonna tell daddy . how did you find this marcus !? smh =/

ha .

" Im saying , wifey over bitches , but money over her "
hows that for a bit of Pre-anniversary love ? >:0 .
Ruthless season i guess . . . Lmao . i loveee him . so much dude .

Chriss ! sweetie i love yu ! your so cute nd fluffy .
your a cute fluffy meanie thou .

Our Valentines day was wonderful . cant wait until Tuesday !

well a certain someone felt up tight because of my previous Blog . .
so he smashed my head into the pillow and said " im giving you something to write about "

so readers , there you go .

Missing something

I need some serious inspiration mann !
i dont wanna write wack ish . .

Like what is there to talk about ?
. .
Ive been anxious to spill my intimate life . . BUT I WONT lmao
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Uh Obama has been delivering some nice speeches on CNN =]
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Im not in the mood to quote songs
. .
Valentines Day is in 2 days =?
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SBCC is so cool, we get Friday & Monday off for Presidents day !
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ive been GB a lot dude . =]! ! !
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well when i have something meaningful to say, ill come back !

toddles ! :-*

rain drops

oh sb why are you so sad ?
you have been crying for dayss now ,
what is the matter ? =/

Smileys !

i paper chase fu*k stand still money ! >:0

nd im hella fly but his girl dumb bummy. :P

Niggas kill w. me and kill for me. ;D

and on these blogs i go nutty buddy. :)

Lets Go !

• i got the worst head-ache in the world right now
• myspace has become real asinine to me , so i cancelled that bitch .
• i dont need Bullshit from anyone , anyone whos full of it , can Fall backkk
• i dont give a fuck about being in love
• confession : i smoke weed AT LEAST once a week ; better than cheating
• im about to light up reallll soon . this calls for an eighth !
• i never give ! bitch .
• your either w. me or your against me , your choice .
• technology love is idiotic , especially if you have a good thing at home .
• I have ALL THE BITCHES
• nd i still dont give a fuck about them hoes .
• You had a good thing Bro . its gone .

this is real . this is me .

Greatest love of all .

Okay so i know you guys are tired of me and the whole love thing . BUT this time its for realll . like my pumpkin is so RIGHT for me . we spent the whole day together [ alone ] . We woke up this morning took a shower =] . got dressed nd headed out . We went to the Farmers market nd Pumpkin bought me the prettiest pink flowers , then we went to borders nd got some books we needed for school . Then we went grocery shopping for dinner , while we were there Pumpkin got me this Strawberry brownie Kabob ! it was so bomb ! we finshed up there nd came back to my apt nd i cooked dinner for us . nd then we just chilled out to some slow jams nd cuddled up in some blankets . pumpkin didnt even sweat me about going to go watch the superbowl game , nd was just all about me the whole day . . . Pumpkin also mentioned she doesnt mind whom i messing w. as long as i remember who comes 1st . which is fine w. me =] .


She is most definitely the one for ree .

ha , yess i said [ SHE ]

i found the greatest love of all

INSIDE of ME . =]

this is real . this is ree

iBELIEVE

in the saying " when one door closes , others open "

but the reality is , these so called doors have no peep hole . . . yu never know what nor when something is going to come . yu just gotta wait until it knocks . Then , well all that`s left is to open it hoping that it`s better than what walked out previously .

so whats better ? trying to lock in what yu already have , or letting it go and bracing your self for a new challenge ?

depends on the person of course . see im the type who loves security and comfortability ( is that a word ? ) . not really into the whole risk taking sort of thing . well , idk . we shall see whats next .

this is real . this is ree .

I am . . . Sharee Hughes =]

for any one who enjoys reading the blogs i post , nd have been wondering why i havent wrote much of anything lately , i apologize . i truly dont have anything to talk about . im tired of airing my relationship PROBLEMS . im sure its pretty annoying to yu too .

im going through a sort of emancipation period . throwing away any prior way of thinking that others forced upon me , nd really just sat down and thought about what i want for myself .

its hard yu know . . . isolating yourself , nd more importantly your mind , to give your self time to focus on just yu , and what yu want . well for me anyways . ive always been the type to try nd see if i can make others smile . . not anymore . im not saying that to say , i dont care about others . i will never stop loving who i love . but i will no longer put myself second . . until i have children .

i just want to be happy . nd for those of yu who stayed supportive of me through ALL of my emotional breakdowns nd never ran away leaving me to cry alone . im taking yu guys all the way to the top w. me . .

oh did i forget to mention . . [Sharee is going to the top . ]

i originated that thought btw =]

LOVE , REE

Question .

Should
[ i ]
give up ,
or
should
[ i ]
just keep chasing pavements .

e v e n i f i t l e a d s n o w h e r e . . .

LOVE , REE

I think its time

For me to go hard

As the hood im from ! =]

LOVE , REE

Letting it go .

Since yu said NEVER . i guess ill let it all out now

Might wanna make some time before yu read this , it shall be the longest blog ive ever wrotee .

Howw could yu be so heartless MR. SANCHEZ .
Geeeez i did everything a girlfriend could do nd only asked for your respect in return . nothing else . yu want to be freee as a bird and fly whenever nd where ever yu want .

like is the freedom worth my love , my warm embrace , my comfort when your down . my Kisseysss , mmy nummiess . my paste-ies ? my noseys , my lioo cheekyss .

now ally`s on the phone w. me . she saysss . its okay ree . now just throw him in the pile of others ex`s . but its not that easy bro . like now im crying again . like i cant go out nd party . cant hang out w. the opposite sex . she says " well i bet he`s going to " gotta get off the phone w. her a.s.a.p . shes making it worse .

i dont wanna careee , but he has such a strong hold on me . i loved him . i dis-obeyed my daddy . . my daddyyy . he loves me sooo much . the last words he said to me this last weekend was " Babe yu dont seem as bubbly as yu used to , are yu happy ? " nd i just cryed mann . i just cried nd he just held me . he said . " Babe yu gotta live for yu . nobody else . just yu " i wanted to say i would be happy , if chris would be happy w. me . but of course i didnt say that .

Man im so hurt . thats why im rambling on so . Like i need to vent .

nd being a hoe is not the way [ i ] vent . i need my mom or something . im crying again .

does anyone know my pain ? i know he doesnt . he doesnt know the half of it . like hes just oh so nonchalantly on Aim nd facebook right now .

nd our anniversary was soo close . since its our 1st year , nd paper signifies the 1st year when it comes to anniversaries , i was making him a scrap book . really pretty . full of our convos that i saved and all our pictures we ever took . all the letters he ever wrote me . really sympathetic { look at our journey until now } sort of thing .

like i was so on him man . like nobody in this world could tell me my baby wasnt gonna marry me nd make me happy for the rest of my life . but he stood here in my face and said he would never come back . NEVER .

like those words are so harsh for someone who loved yu so much chris . like and instead of acknowledging the new person i had become just for yu , you dwell`d on my past . while i overlooked your present . nd thought nothing of it .

man i`ve said so many words . ive tried so hard . ive done everything in my power . i was your little puppet . nd the more i type this the more i realize that i was stuck on stupid for yu . while all yu cared about was your self .

Like all yu cared about was yu , nd all i cared about was yu . so who was there to care about me ? nobody . sure i got bits and pieces from friends . but not enough cause now im broken . i feel so out of it .

like but i have got to get over it right ?
i have to . . . .

i cant . fuck . bye . I love yu Chris . w. all my heart . STILL nd FOREVER .

your next girlfriend will have hell w. me i promise .

LOVE , REE

Swim

In this cold nd hard world
where many ppl are sinking
nd the mediocre individual
is merely trying to float .

i will strive . i will swim .

nd i will no longer let absurd situations , nor moronic people destroy my positive vibe .

LOVE , REE

Love , so many things i`ve got to tell yu .

im so irritated that some people use the word so lightly .
because that word , to me means everything .

When [ I ] love , im willing to go out of my way , i do all i can , i never hurt nor deceive those whom [ I ] love . Give yu my last cent if i dont desperately need it , maybe even make fun of my self so yu can smile . . tell yu how nice yu look , never jealous , i embrace the fact that the person im loving is bombb . This is not just for the one i call my significant other . This is for all who i say [ i lovee yu ] to . this is a blog for yu .

If i say i love yu . that means yu are apart of my heart . and ill do anything for yu if its not harmful to me , or someone else i love . So , if your not willing to do the same

DONT SAY YU

LOVE , REE

P.S Twiinn , my love dont be [ a woman so heartless ] . please dont punish those who truly love yu , we^ dont deserve that mama . I lovee yu .

iHURT .

my head is pounding man .
like , all i want to do is love yu
i swear .
Ive been trying for the longest
to show yu , that yu are my heart.

i just need that back , yu know . My battery has the little exclamation mark over it . My Tank . . is on [ E ] . The only thing that will replenish it .

is effort . . . I love yu Christopher Sanchez . With all of my heart .

I just need yu to

LOVE , REE

Home .

I love LA . .
i really do but i really thinks its time for me to go home .
This City is full of Bullshit nd Temptation .
Not to mention my baggage =/ .

Santa Barbara I miss yu love . see yu soon .

P . S
I dont know whats going on between me nd Fluffy but i`d like for it to stop now . I miss him an awful lot .

LOVE , REE

Hey Mama =]

See you`re :

UNbreakable ,

UNmistakable
highly capable ,

lady that`s making loot

A living legend too ,

just look at what heaven do

Sent me an angel ,
and I thank you

Mamaa . =]

My Beautiful Mommy . ( Although this picture is a year old )

Had a wonderful time w. mommy today . like on the reall man , everytime i get w. her nd she starts spit`n that knowledge , i always leave w. a whole new mind set . it`s one thing if yu hear certain things from ppl yu dont know personally , its another when your mom lived it . . .

LOVE , kellene`s daughter REE