SB

Day by Day Santa Barbara is becoming more and more beautiful .
How did i ever bring myself to think about running away ?

I cant wait until mid-March, April . . I know the weather is going to be absolutely perfecttt =]
Picnics && Lazy days roaming the beach w. my lio fluffy monkeyy .

P.S , everything is finee now ♥

Promise

Fresh outta Ethics class , and out of all the meaningful things Dr. Marc Bobro said & questioned , one stood out the most to me on this 24th day of the 2nd month of 2009 :

Is a Promise unconditional ?

My answer : most definitely

=[ / =]

Fuck it , Once again ill sleep alone
Cause nobody in this world
can take his place on our^ throne .
And all the love that was shown. . .
How did it go so wrong ?
How could i not reminisce on us^ 17 , . .
acting like we`re grown
ha . . in front of daddy`s home =X
Late night t-mails to your phone . . =]

Nd late night kisses in my drive way
" im moving to SB "
Daddy looked at me sideways
But the thought of losing you after may . .

. . Turn my future summer skies dark gray . .


Nd i could care less what the people say
i declare today officially [ OUR^ DAY ]

mrsanchez08.blogspot.com

im sitting here reading all of your blogs .
and i must say , you went pretty hard in some of those posts
ex : " w. you you you and her "
Lmao .
but those small things dont amount to the many beautiful blogs you wrote about your wife .
I tried to comment on some , but it wouldnt let me for some reason .
well .
I love you ♥

No !

I can not stand this !
I feel like jumping off a damn cliff !
Why ? we were supposed to be forever . .
forever . forever . forever .
why not ? why couldnt we ?
Christopher Sanchez ! your my everything . everything . everything
MY Husband , so what am i supposed to do when i see you w. another .
Im sure to have enough rage to pull her head right off of her shoulders !
i know she wont deserve you ! i know . i knoww chris .
No matter how smart , pretty or whatever she may be . ill look at her and see [ doo-doo mama that has MY husband ]
i cant handle that chris .
i know im sweet . but how quickly i will turn sour .
i wish i can send you nummies through this computer
so that you can say " i love you lio baby "
and we could smile and roll over into a deep sleep
one that we would never wake up from .
One where we walk and play on clouds forever .
No one else , just us .
Like when we moved here to S.B .
we didnt care about any parties , hanging out , anything .
Just rolled around in the bed .
not giving a fuck .
i need that
i need that back .
givee it back .

this hurts .

Spoken word .

but Still i cry from behind this closed curtain
Cause deep down Sharee is still hurting ,

but for you i`ll smile all day .
look at that picture in my phone
and from there i`ll be okay .

you changed my life in the most extraordinary way . . .

Like how you made me get over my BAD habit ,
and gave me wisdom so i`d never go back at it .

You and i knew we were against the world ,
and you didnt mind as long as you had your . . . girl .

Through that Goood thang , and that Bad .
I made you happy . . . I made you mad . . .
You made Me smile . . . But also made me sad .
but still i say your the best thing ive ever had . .

And , through those seasons how much has changed ,
we think staying together would be strange ? =/
well , . . i guess thats cause the sun shined way less than it rained .

Yea , and even though we`re now apart
You still remain the only real love in my heart . . .

Too bad we cant go back and
Minus the controversy
So that Today we could have had the chance to say ,

Happy Anniversary

I love you . Goodnight .

February 23rd

------------ February 23, 2008 7:24 am ------------
SooNotn2Yoou: Well i know your having a busy morning .
SooNotn2Yoou: Buttt . I heard something yesterday . && even though its kinda babyish . It made me think of you .
SooNotn2Yoou: You Are My Sunshine .
SooNotn2Yoou: My Only Sunshine .
SooNotn2Yoou: You make me happy .
SooNotn2Yoou: When skys are gray .
SooNotn2Yoou: You`ll never know dear .
SooNotn2Yoou: How much I love you .
SooNotn2Yoou: Please dont take me Sunshine away . .
SooNotn2Yoou: In the Month . . that comes . . . After May . . :-(

no frowns , all smiles .

Nothing but love .

For a reason

I ask my self
Can this week get any worse ?
it seems like this week ive been through hell and back , like the kinda ish that would make you say " Fuck my life ." But , dont Judge me , you never walked in my shoes , so you have no clue what my journey was like . All i know is i want to escape , not temporarily either . like im really considering changing my name and moving to another city . Somewhere far , where no one knows a single thing about me and cant trace anything back to this life because my name isnt Sharee Hughes anymore .

i want to say a few things to a few people .

Christopher Sanchez .
Boy i loved you , i still do . and i will no matter where i go . but you honestly hurt me more than everyone else before you [combined] . im not going to go on and on like you are such a bad guy . hey maybe if i were in your shoes i would have done some of the same things . Since October 2007 you`ve always been the one who could make me smile w. little to no effort , which is why i became so weak for you . we agree`d on making our anniversary on February 24th , and we were so close man , so close . But it all came crashing down over silliness . but what is done is done . Just know that i regret nothing , even if in October of 2007 , i knew that this would end so horribly , i wouldnt change a thing . the experiences that you and i shared is probably equivalent to a couple that has been married for 10 years . I love yu forever darling , i hope you feel the same .

Iman Europe
Man , really i dont even know what happened . i just know that im no longer "twin" im Sharee . Where it came from and why , I dont know . all i know is i love you TWIN . i will always remember you shawty=] . how could i not , we were so much alike that it was weird . I believe everyone must meet at least one individual that makes them feel like that in their lifetime , w. out it you truely haven`t Lived . I will admit that maybe i was a little extra for how i felt about you and Chris still being friends , but all i know is that im proud of myself for being honest . Both of you knew exactly how i felt about it . honesty is the reason why we grew so close in the 1st place . nd ima cherrish what we had forever .

Ally J
Oh my . 1st Im sorry . I know we talked about this on the phone already but i wanna put it in writing . . well typing . I was in a verrry emotional state of mind , but even so , i had NO REASON of EVER accusing you of some east-y shit like that . ( i know your laughing at my choice of words ) I love you girl . for real . we had some gooood times lmao , and we will CONTINUE to have them .
Turn . Me . Up . Niekaaa !

Charles Glaster
I love you Besty . Forever and Always . Right now your my ONLY best friend , The only one who always looks out for me , takes my side no matter what , and finds any way possible to contact me when im M.I.A . You have BEEN here by my side , and i know thats how its gonna stay , like i can say w. full confidence that my besty will never turn his back on me , no matter how stupid i act or how much i may piss him off . He`s my Besty for life . Even if my name nd location changes . =]


I think thats about it .

paix et amour .

OMG

why the heck does my little 10 year old brother read my blogs . he left a comment on " let`s go !" saying that he was gonna tell daddy . how did you find this marcus !? smh =/

ha .

" Im saying , wifey over bitches , but money over her "
hows that for a bit of Pre-anniversary love ? >:0 .
Ruthless season i guess . . . Lmao . i loveee him . so much dude .

Chriss ! sweetie i love yu ! your so cute nd fluffy .
your a cute fluffy meanie thou .

Our Valentines day was wonderful . cant wait until Tuesday !

well a certain someone felt up tight because of my previous Blog . .
so he smashed my head into the pillow and said " im giving you something to write about "

so readers , there you go .

Missing something

I need some serious inspiration mann !
i dont wanna write wack ish . .

Like what is there to talk about ?
. .
Ive been anxious to spill my intimate life . . BUT I WONT lmao
. .
Uh Obama has been delivering some nice speeches on CNN =]
. .
Im not in the mood to quote songs
. .
Valentines Day is in 2 days =?
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SBCC is so cool, we get Friday & Monday off for Presidents day !
. .
ive been GB a lot dude . =]! ! !
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well when i have something meaningful to say, ill come back !

toddles ! :-*

rain drops

oh sb why are you so sad ?
you have been crying for dayss now ,
what is the matter ? =/

Smileys !

i paper chase fu*k stand still money ! >:0

nd im hella fly but his girl dumb bummy. :P

Niggas kill w. me and kill for me. ;D

and on these blogs i go nutty buddy. :)

Lets Go !

• i got the worst head-ache in the world right now
• myspace has become real asinine to me , so i cancelled that bitch .
• i dont need Bullshit from anyone , anyone whos full of it , can Fall backkk
• i dont give a fuck about being in love
• confession : i smoke weed AT LEAST once a week ; better than cheating
• im about to light up reallll soon . this calls for an eighth !
• i never give ! bitch .
• your either w. me or your against me , your choice .
• technology love is idiotic , especially if you have a good thing at home .
• I have ALL THE BITCHES
• nd i still dont give a fuck about them hoes .
• You had a good thing Bro . its gone .

this is real . this is me .

Greatest love of all .

Okay so i know you guys are tired of me and the whole love thing . BUT this time its for realll . like my pumpkin is so RIGHT for me . we spent the whole day together [ alone ] . We woke up this morning took a shower =] . got dressed nd headed out . We went to the Farmers market nd Pumpkin bought me the prettiest pink flowers , then we went to borders nd got some books we needed for school . Then we went grocery shopping for dinner , while we were there Pumpkin got me this Strawberry brownie Kabob ! it was so bomb ! we finshed up there nd came back to my apt nd i cooked dinner for us . nd then we just chilled out to some slow jams nd cuddled up in some blankets . pumpkin didnt even sweat me about going to go watch the superbowl game , nd was just all about me the whole day . . . Pumpkin also mentioned she doesnt mind whom i messing w. as long as i remember who comes 1st . which is fine w. me =] .


She is most definitely the one for ree .

ha , yess i said [ SHE ]

i found the greatest love of all

INSIDE of ME . =]

this is real . this is ree

iBELIEVE

in the saying " when one door closes , others open "

but the reality is , these so called doors have no peep hole . . . yu never know what nor when something is going to come . yu just gotta wait until it knocks . Then , well all that`s left is to open it hoping that it`s better than what walked out previously .

so whats better ? trying to lock in what yu already have , or letting it go and bracing your self for a new challenge ?

depends on the person of course . see im the type who loves security and comfortability ( is that a word ? ) . not really into the whole risk taking sort of thing . well , idk . we shall see whats next .

this is real . this is ree .