No !

I can not stand this !
I feel like jumping off a damn cliff !
Why ? we were supposed to be forever . .
forever . forever . forever .
why not ? why couldnt we ?
Christopher Sanchez ! your my everything . everything . everything
MY Husband , so what am i supposed to do when i see you w. another .
Im sure to have enough rage to pull her head right off of her shoulders !
i know she wont deserve you ! i know . i knoww chris .
No matter how smart , pretty or whatever she may be . ill look at her and see [ doo-doo mama that has MY husband ]
i cant handle that chris .
i know im sweet . but how quickly i will turn sour .
i wish i can send you nummies through this computer
so that you can say " i love you lio baby "
and we could smile and roll over into a deep sleep
one that we would never wake up from .
One where we walk and play on clouds forever .
No one else , just us .
Like when we moved here to S.B .
we didnt care about any parties , hanging out , anything .
Just rolled around in the bed .
not giving a fuck .
i need that
i need that back .
givee it back .

this hurts .