To dream of the person you wish to be is to waste the person you are .
12.30.2008
You thinkin life I'm thinkin more like [What's up tonight ?] Come on love , yu know Im someones wife And even tho that ish tight I'm not gonna jeopardize my life (aiight?!) . =]
so we have been in the living room all morning . by we i mean me , karen , daddy , ndlio bros marcusndmyles . Playing Guitar hero 3 . nd Daddy beat all of us by a longgg shot . =[ . now , at 2 we`re barley getting ready for the day . I L my family .
On another note ,
I think its real eff`d up . the whole situation that happened yesterday yo . like on God i would never deceive twin like that . i was really looking forward to hanging w. her while in LA . i guess thats NOT gonna happen . =/ . nd i have a issue w. her not believing me for real , cause like after alll this . anything thats happened . i always believe her . like i thought we had a strong trust factor in our equation yu know .
iono . maybe im just hurt . like i opened up to her in ways i usually dont . nd told her things nobody has a clue about . like to have someone in your life like that . nd then lose them . . .
Ex . its like having the bombest boyfriend right . nd everything is fine . nd one day he accuses yu of cheating . but u didnt . yu would never . cause like he`s too bomb for that . get it ? false accusations its a eff`d up thing .
whatever . I know i love iman . nd its that unconditional shit , that doesnt care about her being mad at me . i love her anyways . . .
well , i tried to do the whole dayy by day thing nd it just didnt work .
just know ive been having fun . i only have one more thing on my " to do " list and that is to hang out with twin . oh nd have a nice [ new years eve ] . then im ready to pack up nd go home nd enjoy the rest of my vacation w. fluffy . . . .
while i was writing this i received disturbing news .
today was Chillll . . . spent the whole day w. daddy . . laughing talking reminiscing . eating greasy burgers . Lmao . ilmy daddyyy =] hes the bombest man on earth .
Pretty turned down . Just hung w. the lil bros fell asleep in daddy`s bed . up until 30 min ago, i woke up nxt to karen . got right in the shower . now im tlkn to yu on blogspot . now , night night time .
Today was definitely chill . woke up this morning saying " Be cool ree , be coool " nd i listened ! I started my day w. some morning yoga nd it was smooth sailing . i wont lie and say my mind wasn`t wondering but the majority of my day was spent study`n . Any whoo , now i shall lay me down to sleep , nd i pray the lord keeps my mind at peace .
Lmao . F**k im so tired . Oh yu will never know how much . I wish i could forget yu forever . Where is that little flash thing that will smith had in that men in Black movie ? i need it . Erase yu, yea thats just what i want to do . F**k yu, F**k 2-24-08, 3-4-08, nd 4-8-08 . F**k Prom, F**k every memory, every plan , everything we thought we were , everything everyone else thought we were . Ha, i wish i could see every ones face that reads this . " Sharee nd Chris werent perfectly happy? " HELL NO . yu dont even know the half . I just wish i could find the strength to just let it go . Pleasee God . Do that for me . Get him OUTTT of my damn brain . Out of my heart . Out of my soul . . . .
Well maybe im late, or have been hiding under a rock or something. But im starting to wonder about this book/movie. It was the topic of discussion of many at thanksgiving dinner, and im noticing it on ads and blogs too.
Im thinking about buying it to see what all the hype is about.