Might wanna make some time before yu read this , it shall be the longest blog ive ever wrotee .
Howw could yu be so heartless MR. SANCHEZ .
Geeeez i did everything a girlfriend could do nd only asked for your respect in return . nothing else . yu want to be freee as a bird and fly whenever nd where ever yu want .
like is the freedom worth my love , my warm embrace , my comfort when your down . my Kisseysss , mmy nummiess . my paste-ies ? my noseys , my lioo cheekyss .
now ally`s on the phone w. me . she saysss . its okay ree . now just throw him in the pile of others ex`s . but its not that easy bro . like now im crying again . like i cant go out nd party . cant hang out w. the opposite sex . she says " well i bet he`s going to " gotta get off the phone w. her a.s.a.p . shes making it worse .
i dont wanna careee , but he has such a strong hold on me . i loved him . i dis-obeyed my daddy . . my daddyyy . he loves me sooo much . the last words he said to me this last weekend was " Babe yu dont seem as bubbly as yu used to , are yu happy ? " nd i just cryed mann . i just cried nd he just held me . he said . " Babe yu gotta live for yu . nobody else . just yu " i wanted to say i would be happy , if chris would be happy w. me . but of course i didnt say that .
Man im so hurt . thats why im rambling on so . Like i need to vent .
nd being a hoe is not the way [ i ] vent . i need my mom or something . im crying again .
does anyone know my pain ? i know he doesnt . he doesnt know the half of it . like hes just oh so nonchalantly on Aim nd facebook right now .
nd our anniversary was soo close . since its our 1st year , nd paper signifies the 1st year when it comes to anniversaries , i was making him a scrap book . really pretty . full of our convos that i saved and all our pictures we ever took . all the letters he ever wrote me . really sympathetic { look at our journey until now } sort of thing .
like i was so on him man . like nobody in this world could tell me my baby wasnt gonna marry me nd make me happy for the rest of my life . but he stood here in my face and said he would never come back . NEVER .
like those words are so harsh for someone who loved yu so much chris . like and instead of acknowledging the new person i had become just for yu , you dwell`d on my past . while i overlooked your present . nd thought nothing of it .
man i`ve said so many words . ive tried so hard . ive done everything in my power . i was your little puppet . nd the more i type this the more i realize that i was stuck on stupid for yu . while all yu cared about was your self .
Like all yu cared about was yu , nd all i cared about was yu . so who was there to care about me ? nobody . sure i got bits and pieces from friends . but not enough cause now im broken . i feel so out of it .
like but i have got to get over it right ?
i have to . . . .
i cant . fuck . bye . I love yu Chris . w. all my heart . STILL nd FOREVER .
your next girlfriend will have hell w. me i promise .
LOVE , REE
1 comment:
yea girl...he aint shit
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